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Well I’ve had all that I’ve wanted as far as material things go. And have at one time or another been in love and I guess loved (unsure about that one — haha — humans can be so dishonest in regards to that). And well since I’ve never wanted kids nor had a desire to be married, I guess there just isn’t much left on my list of desires that haven’t already manifested in some shape or form. Nor is there anything worth waking up for … or to (not even love is worth that). When ya want to go you want to go. Not a single thing can change that. Soooooooooooooo…

All I want for Christmas is……………………… (drum roll please) …………..

A one-way ticket out of this world, universe and galaxy — out of all of it. It just can’t get any better than that since there isn’t a thing left for me here that I haven’t already had nor want again. Life’s been absolutely great to me (along with my share of downs) — Thank All That Is — and now I’m ready to hit the road to eternity (if it exists) and never return. So that is the only thing on my Christmas list this year. And if I don’t get it for Christmas, then it will just be moved to my “to do” list until it manifests. Yes, I’m dead serious. Can’t get any serious than that! Besides when folks die you always here people say as if they just know something that, “They’re in a better place.” Well damn, if it’s a better place than here, what am I waiting for?! Get me on a first class flight out of here NOW. Shoooooot. haha. I’m laughing but I’m serious.

While I “await” my exit, I’ll just continue making the most of life and having fun while always being prepared to go. Go when I’m happy or sad; oohh it makes no never mind. Either or doesn’t matter, just as long as I go. I sure do fear the death experience but hopefully when time comes it won’t be so bad nor at all rather it’ll be peaceful and instant. I’m literally ready to go at anytime. Sure small interests pop up when I sit bored but they either manifest or go away. But a one-way ticket out of this earth and whole universe-galaxy thingy into that “better place” that dead folks go (if there be anything at all), now that one is forever PERMANENT on my list; to happen before I reach age 27 would be ideal. But what are the chances of that happening?! (provoking eh?) I know what I want but sure don’t want to go out just any kind of way if it were entirely up to me. How stupid would that be. If I didn’t care about the possibility of pain in death then I’d be dead already. HELLO! I just don’t have the guts like those folks who hang themselves, slice their wrist, shoot themselves and such. Naw, I love me too much to do endure that kind of pain. My ideal death is to instantly slip away in my sleep, just poof and I’m gone.

I know some of you probably think I’m nuts or something because some of you I’ve shared my thoughts with personally and well your response is what it is. But hey, believe it or not, you’re going to die too someday. So don’t act foolish. Pray for me? Sure pray that I die exactly like I desire to go. And in return I’ll pray for you that you can continue to endure this world in all it’s wonderful chaos with bittersweet moments until it’s your time to go. You don’t have to think about death as I have — since it’s really a scare subject to think about oneself. But the least you can do is prepare for it especially if you have dependents. You’d be utterly selfish to not. But you see I don’t have any dependents — Thank God! Why in hell would I want to bring a child into planet Earth?! When the “spirit world” (if it exists) would be what is said to be a “better place”. Yea weird, huh. And I am not tied to anyone nor thing here. So … think what you may of me; I really don’t give a damn! I’m ready to breeze on out of here. How ’bout you?

Peaceful Certainty is Sweet When Balance Occurs Gracefully.

Hm. That’s right — ALL — right.

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